[Excerpt from TT: 2007-08-05]
[Ann] I would like to ask more about the notion of “justification of existence”. Can Michael say more about how we feel the need to do this? Does it have something to do with toting up our “accomplishments”/ How much of it is imprinting? (sorry for the vagueness. Flying by the seat of my pants here) How does one step away from this justification?
[Michael Entity] Part of the dymanic of being a Young Soul is to justify the presence and existence of self. This influence is still quite strong in your world, as you may have observed, despite the actual Soul Age of a fragment. For the Older Soul, this pressure can be a constant weight that makes no sense, but is still addressed with a great amount of attention.
We wish to make clear that it is NOT necessary for Young Souls to justify their existence, but that there is a consistent inclination to believe that this is necessary, thus it becomes a part of the dynamic of Young Soul environments.
It is an exhausting and daunting way of living for the Older Soul to endure this pressure, falling into the obligation to be tangibly productive, sustaining social standards of success, showing observable ambition, and relegating Play Time to a space and time that is rarely visited.
When we say that many feel an obligation to “jusitify their existence,” we mean that it is not enough for most of you to simply breathe in life, to embrace love and kindness, to express joy. You must find REASONS for it, or only collect and express these things in relation to how rewarded you feel you deserve to be for what you have contributed. Because the standards for defining your worth are so superficial in most cases (financial stability, recognition, promotion, praise, working hard, rejecting playfulness, indulging in struggle) the Older Soul simply doesn’t have the energy or motivation to “play along.” This, then, contributes to the division felt between the self and the world.
However, the Older Soul still “goes through the motions” of existing in this paradigm since it is so pervasive, thus betraying the self on a daily basis, diminishing the self-esteem.
It is not that the Older Soul cannot play along in the current paradigms, but it is only when the Older Soul “buys into” the paradigm as a conclusive, limited space for living that the impact becomes harmful.
And most of you do “buy into” it. What we mean by this is that most of you do not “look up” from your struggles for years before asking, “What the hell am I doing??!!” Many of you ask this question and then put your energy back into the same patterns, but some of you ask this and make the changes that allow room for your Being.
To step away from the justification for your existence can be as simple as DOING WHAT YOU WANT TO DO (making the choices that lead you toward what you want, not what you think you must have), but more importantly than doing what you want to do is learning how to choose to HAVE FUN DOING WHAT YOU END UP DOING.
It is not uncommon for any Soul Age to have to do what one doesn’t want to do, but there is never a need to permanently perpetuate your distaste for that part of life. There are ways to always find joy or create joy in some way, either as a complement to the struggle, as a space after the struggle, or as pockets within the struggles.
In the end, you exist with or without proving your worth in productivity.
Consider this: If your life is an unlimited tap of water, it makes sense to relegate much of it to things you wish to grow around you, (and what you water is what you get), but you must DRINK of this life, too. Many of you continue to water many things around you, but never drink of your own source.
All of you may choose to live in whatever way you feel inclined, but we share this with you so that you may also remember that it is your right, your choice, and your eventual evolution to realize that all of this is YOURS, with or without permission, approval, or productivity. It’s YOUR life. And you are the source of it. Drink up.