[Excerpt from TT: 2007-07-01]
[Cyprus] This is sort of a personal question, but I am sure I am not the only on that this happens to, so I thought it could benefit others as well. I have been feeling very overwhelmed lately. I feel as if I am either on high or completely off. I am much more comfortable in a sort of middle area, I can’t find any balance. No matter what I seem to do I can’t seem to get there. Please advise.
[Michael Entity] The Energy Report will most likely address this issue as your month of July moves into the exploration of the ATTITUDE and the Attitude this year is what we have described as REALIST. For those who are not familiar with the energy of Realism, which you are not, then this energy can feel overwhelming and even a bit painful. In addition to this, the examination over the month of July appears to us to be a deep examination of SELF and what is true about you at this point in your life. This, in itself, can be painful, as what we will call “stuff” comes to the surface for examination that is not particularly enjoyable. Without understanding that this wave of energy is moving through, especially for one who resists Realism, the energy can feel like a constant electrical current that simply will not stop. When there are breaks in the flow, then the body feels inclined to withdraw into sleep as respite before the next current begins. Understanding that this energy is simply available for WHEN YOU WISH TO USE IT, then you can find appropriate ways to ground what is not used. In your case, the use of the energy could best be used to address your anxiety over your changes in work and geographic locations/commute. You really do not like changes of this sort, so it would do you well to grasp that your participation in the change is one of CHOICE, not imposition, and that it is okay. When you wish not to have the energy current affecting you, a shower can help disipate it, but you also have the ability to simply use your consciousness to state that “this is not my energy,” and give it a few moments to fall back to the earth.
We will also say that part of the “stuff” that will come up for you, and part of the energy current that runs through you now, is related to the extended emotional experience during Troy’s battle with his illness and your inability to be within his presence. You have not fully “forgiven” yourself for this (which is not a necessary act), but you are carrying the jumble of energy until you have contact with Troy. This will do no good for either of you, so it is Good Work to disipate it as you can.