[Excerpt from TT (POF): 2011-05-01]
Self destruction is my primary CF and self deprecation is my secondary.
[Martha] Can you tell me when my primary CF was settled on and its status today? I don’t feel too self destructive these days
[Michael_Entity] Self-destruction is one of the more insidious of the Chief Features, and does not always show up as so obvious, especially in the Older cycles. In your case, the fear of worthlessness was planted in the early teens, but quickly countered by a dive into self-expression and self-confidence.
It was not until the relationship between the self and the body started to come into question did the issues of worth come back into focus. While you may not be self-destructive in any obvious sense, it could be said that you still fear that you, particularly as a body, are worthless. However, it is not in the fear that any problem arises, but in how one handles that fear.
[Martha] I think the difference between that and self-dep may be blurry, or they work together
[Michael_Entity] In your case, you are doing Good Work. You are turning all issues related to your fears into motivations that are generating worth and self-esteem in the long run.
All Chief Features dovetail “nicely” together so that they play off of each other, however, Self-deprecation is quite different from Self-destruction, in that Self-deprecation is rooted in fears related to inspiration and Self-destruction is rooted in fears related to expression.
[Martha] I don’t think I quite get the distinction
[Michael_Entity] In other words: Self-deprecation is an internal standard that, when not met, inhibits or removes self nurturing and compassion, whereas Self-destruction tends to be an external standard that, when not met, inhibits enthusiasm and self-expression.